Tired

I'm tired.  It's probably from being stressed about my dad.  I've spent the past couple of evenings at the hospital with my mom and dad.  It's a bit of a drive from my house.  I'm usually up late, but not driving around and worrying.  I haven't been sleeping very well at night. 

This morning I woke up and felt exhausted.  I had planned on staying home all day today and spending time with my girls.  It was such a challenge because I wanted to be "fun mama", but it took everything in me to do the most simple tasks.  I felt like going back to bed and sleeping the day away.  I knew that wouldn't be fair to anyone.  I don't want the girls to worry.  I don't want Jeremy to take on any more than he already has been.  While he's been taking care of the girls when I'm gone, he's also been working very hard at his job.

I'll admit, I was a bit of a crab this morning.  I just didn't feel good, mentally, emotionally, physically.  Once I got Molly and Audrey down for a nap I joined Emily and Jeremy in the pool.  Molly woke up and we had her join us.  Unfortunately, Audrey didn't wake up for pool time, but she doesn't know she missed out.  We're going to keep Emily and Audrey up to watch The Avatar movie tonight.  I just put Molly down for the night.

My mom has continued to call with updates.  We still do not know the cause of dad's internal bleeding.  He continues to receive blood.  The doctor is now mentioning the possibility of cirrhosis.  We're waiting for a CT scan of my dad's abdomen to be seen by the doctor. 

My dad asked me to bring him a picture of Molly.  He has pictures of Audrey and Emily with him, but none of Molly.  I thought he'd like the one at the top of my post.  It was taken today after an afternoon in the pool.

My heart has also been heavy thinking of a wonderful family who lost their daughter, Hannah a year ago today.  Hannah and her younger sister, Lily are very close in age to my Emily and Audrey.  I've followed their family blog all year and I've gotten to know Hannah through the writings of her mother, Rachael.  If you would like to visit Rachael's blog and leave a comment click here.

Comments

[Gigi]

Oh, how very sad...yet another drowning victim. I have a friend who lost one of her daughters and her husband (who went back in to save the daughter) almost two years ago. At this point, I don't think that anyone in my family will ever go near a beach again.

News on your dad yet?