See this little monkey? She's almost 2 years of age and has yet to say a single word. She hums, she babbles, she groans and moans, she just doesn't TALK. Jeremy and I are used to this. We went through it with Audrey.
I have to admit that Audrey actually talked a bit more than Molly at the same age, but we know that Audrey's words came in time. We have been hoping that Molly will follow this same path. At Molly's 18 month appointment, her doctor expressed great concern over the lack of speech and highly recommended we have Molly's hearing tested. I put it off for a while. I could tell that Molly could hear us. Then the audiologist from the hospital called me to make an appointment. She explained that Molly might have problems hearing different tones that could affect her speech so I agreed to make the appointment.
I took Molly. She passed her hearing test. No surprise. Went home. Forgot about the hearing concerns. Still worried about the speech but I have hope.
Opened my mail today to find a bill for $300 to pay for the hearing test. $300 AFTER insurance had been billed. I was so mad. I'm still kind of mad but I made cookies and ate them and that made me less mad. I think what upsets me most about this situation is we are getting kicked in the shins financially just because we're trying to be proactive and make sure Molly gets the best care. We'd hate to forego the test to find out that was a huge factor in her delay. It reminds me so much of Emily being denied insurance because of her gross motor skill delays and now anxiety issues. So once, again we are being penalized financially (paying for cobra or expensive private insurance) to get our kids covered.
Tomorrow we will be celebrating Emily's birthday. It seems hard to believe that I have been a parent for seven years. Emily has been the perfect child for me to learn to be a parent by. We had our challenges in the beginning, but if I didn't go through those tough times, I think I would have taken for granted all the wonderful times we've had.
The best part of all is, even though I know there were obstacles, I can only remember all the wonderful times we've had together. As Emily's birthdate has been approaching I have these vivid memories of her first year. Very specific moments where I felt like Jeremy and I were doing the parent thing in the best possible way and all was right with the world. I also remember a lot of time we had together before Emily became a big sister. I think there was a reason that it took us a while to have more children. I think Emily and I both needed extra time to bond and have each other.
Emily has become such a great kid. She is still my drama queen, but she has such a sweet heart. She has her own mind and a great sense of humor. I love that she dances to the beat of a different drum, but still has many friends at school. There isn't any interest in Hannah Montana or High School Musical around here. Emily likes to make her own music on the piano and sing her own songs. She loves to draw and enjoys Japanese anime cartoons.
I love my Emmy Pops so very much. I can't wait to celebrate her birthday tomorrow.
It's really hard to stay away from blogging because it's always been nice to have a place to get my feelings out. I've been going through a LOT lately and it's been tough. For me. It's all personal me stuff that I guess happens when your in your mid/late? 30's. I've been sad, then happy, then sad, then joyous. I've been a mess. I miss old friends. Need time for new ones. Wish that Jeremy and I had more time to be a couple. All that kind of messy stuff.
I'm working out ways, in my head, to fix what I think is broken. If you wouldn't mind, would you hold my hand on the way?
Still feeling a little, hmmm...blah? I've been missing friends from the past. Mostly all my online buddies that I used to have time to chat with for hours. Trying to figure out how to find more time in each day...