Today Emily asked me where we all come from. How we all began. How did it all start. "Mama, how did we get here? I mean, how is it that we are here? Did we come from nothing? Like there were dinosaurs and then there were people? Where did the people start? Was it just a man? What about the woman?" and so on....
I didn't know what to say. SPEECHLESS. I gave her the God story. She seemed to like this idea and it stopped the questions so I'm happy about that.
Earlier this week Emily told me that she "didn't want to be here anymore". She told me that she wished she never was. That she wanted to be gone forever. I felt a wave of electricity shoot through my body. She said it with such a casual expression. Neither happy, nor sad. I tried to play it cool and let her do all the talking. She changed the subject in time and I was able to exhale and begin breathing again.
I don't know if I'm prepared for the mind that Emily owns.